african

african
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i just realised something.
now i know that some of you may never look at me, or think of me the same way once i tell you this...
but im gonna be honest.
and im gonna let you in on my epiphany.

i just realised that i am...black.

no really....beyond anything that i ever have been or could be
i am black
im a woman.
i am black
im a soulful sista full of love and passion and raw honesty.
i am black.
im stressed and frustrated and confused.
i am black.
im a budding lyricist, poet and musician searching for truth and ways of expression beyond the ordinary
...and still that constant remains...
i am black.
im a child...
hungry for approval and attention in the secrecy of my stature.
im a blushing girl, looking to be swept off her feet with all the love that a man could ever offer. and still....i am black.

but now that ive realised this..
theres a whole bunch of stuff that i have to think about...
re think
and
unthink.

will i really accept to be defined by the color of my skin?
what does 'black' REALLY mean?
why did it take me so DAMN long to figure it out?

I wonder if i will ever be able to live up to the heritage that comes with the color of my skin...
the history that saw blood shed and mothers weep for the loss of their sons and their husbands.
i wonder if i will be able to have the strength to overlook the silent anger that seethes within because of past injustices..
and then..
thats where i get mad!!

but then i wonder....
do i have a right to get mad?
should i waste my energy getting mad or should this be an opportunity to impart a little part of my epiphany upon those who do not know..????
If they were not taught all that i know...
and never exposed to it...
if they have never at one point in their lives, experienced what it is to not be like everyone else...how can i expect them to know,understand or feel anything that i go through.

i am black.

and i refuse to be defined by it.
instead...
i choose to define it.

i am a daughter who will be a mother,
i am passion and love coursing through all veins
i am earth, wind, ocean and air...
natural and pure
i am music and a symphony

i am coal knowing the secret of diamonds,
i am pure raw gold
i am the wealth of the earth

i am the constant shadow that follows truth wherever it goes
i am with u...